Flashforward: It is 2010, and 18 people are around our seder table. Well, not entirely around the table. My daughter-in-law Cheryl, who is awaiting back surgery, in lying on the couch. She has made the journey from Newton to Newington, almost two hours of agony in the car, just so she and my son and grandchildren could be with us. My sister Melinda is sitting on the other couch, afraid to move. She was taken to the emergency room in an ambulance from our home the night before due to an extreme attack of vertigo, one of many she has had recently. My 10 month old grandchildren Nathaniel and Evelyn are sitting in high chairs for most of the ceremony, although my daughter Rachel and Evelyn join the group in the living room when Evelyn gets restless. My grandson Max, almost 2 and one half, is making himself at home wandering from one end of the table to the next, his own version of being around the table. Fortunately, in our home we have had to extend the tables into the living room to fit everyone in, so the ceremony is fully visible to those not exactly around the table. I have tried to find comfortable chairs for my Aunt Beryl and my friend Maxanne, both of whom are also experiencing back pain. I myself have been banned from helping to serve the Matzah Ball soup, because the tremors from my Parkinson's Disease have become sufficiently frequent that I am considered by one and all to be a danger around hot liquids. Besides that, I have not successfully fought off my cold, despite three days of bed rest, and I know that the with all of this activity I am risking another round of bronchitis.
Despite this, we are all here. As the time for the seder approaches, everyone is dressed up, and chatting gaily, watching the babies' antics, and listening to our 6 year old granddaughter Hannah report that she is prepared to do the first of the four questions in Hebrew as a solo this year. I call everyone to the table and we begin.
As the matriarch of the family, we ask our Aunt Beryl, now 81, to kindle the holiday lights. She does the English reading, and we all join in on the Hebrew prayer. My husband John leads the seder. Each year he uses the large reader's volume of the Haggadah, which was part of a gift to my parents along with the original set of eight Haggadot that my brothers and sister and I gave to my parents many years ago (as childen, we used the Maxwell House haggadot). At first, maybe we felt like John was channeling my father through that big book, with my father's penciled annotations, which John refuses to erase. Now, however, John has developed his own style, which moves me. He goes through each ritual, reads loudly enough for all to hear, but gently, and pauses enough to let me jump in with a suggestion of where to continue or what to chant in Hebrew. He smiles graciously throughout the service. As an adult convert to Judaism, John leads the basic Hebrew blessings, but where we opt to add more Hebrew chanting, John graciously turns it over to others. Thus we ask Marc, our son who had majored in Jewish and Near Eastern studies in college, to chant the kiddush, and to lead us in the Birkat Hamazon after the service. I sometimes kick of the singing of the other songs, as does our son-in-law Jon, who is good at keeping on the right page and keeping us moving along.
Soon, we are all participating in the ceremonies. It doesn't matter that some of us are not Jewish, (my sister-in-law Kathy, wife of my brother Andy, and my nephew Matt are Catholic), we all join in. My Uncle Yale, who takes pride in considering himself not to be religious, participates fully. Hannah chants the introduction to the four questions and the first of the four questions beautifully in her clear, sweet 6 year old voice. When John discusses the Matzah, the poor man's bread, Max exhibits the toy Matzah with a gleeful cry "Matzah", and we know he is paying attention. He joins in the loud and joyful choruses of Dayenu, and Nate smiles gaily and bangs his hand on the high chair tray in tune to the music. Nate is so excited that he sits in his high chair through the whole pre-meal part of the service, and, his father reports to us later, tries every dish (cut up in small pieces on the high chair tray). Evie spends some of the time reclining on her Mother's lap, but drinks it all in and stays awake for the whole pre-meal portion of the service. Hannah masterfully steals and hides the Afikomen, to be ransomed back later.
I know that my nephew Dan, who has come from New York, and makes a point of joining us whenever he can, will remember the many Seders shared with us, as part of his own history, as will my own children. Will the grandchildren? Will this be a vague memory, spoken of when cousins reunite at weddings and Bar Mitzvahs (remember when we were little and we had the Seder at Grandma and Grandpa's house), or will it only be the type of vague memory that lets them know that not a year when by without a seder?
I realize that this doesn't matter. We have fulfilled the Mitzvah, we have celebrated the Passover. All of the adults present, whether with their own children or children born to others yet raised by us all, have participated in the Mitzvah of passing on the tradition from one generation to the next. We have had our seder, lead with a mixture of joy and solemnity, which captures the essence of the holiday.
Postscript: It is now a little more than two weeks after the seder, and Cheryl has had successful back surgery, Melinda is in treatment for her vertigo, which seems to have been triggered by a virus, and appears to be slowly recovering, and my bout of bronchitis has come and gone.
